maybe i didn't really love you,
maybe i just loved the MEMORY of you.
i received the truth that i should have received a year ago, today.
it immediately sent a lump in my throat.
rushed out of LT3 because the tap was gonna go full blast,
it hurt alot,
to see the truth staring at my face. *the ugly truth*
BUT
after i calmed down and stopped overreacting
it all just faded away.
1000km deeper into my brain.
and for once in a very long time,
i felt like i can finally breathe,
like i'm not held down by anything anymore.
:D

i just played the staring game with my cat,
and i lost!!! because i blinked.
i realised that cats don't blink!
WTHeck!